I Am Not My Feelings

According to doctor’s anxiety disorder is a mental health disorder characterized by feelings of worry, anxiety, or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one's daily activities. Anxiety is not just a mental health disorder, it’s a spiritual issue. Anxiety is what happens when you don’t put your trust in God. 2 years ago, I had to go to the hospital and when I got my hospital bill I was in tears. A couple weeks later another bill came and I was in tears again. I had a job, but the amounts on the hospital bills were overwhelming. I was stressed so much that every time I thought about money and how I was going to pay my bills, my back would hurt. It hurt so bad that I started taking muscle relaxers which would help for a little and then my back would hurt again. It wasn’t until I had a conversation with my dad that everything started to make sense. He asked me “where is your faith in God? “Do you think God wants to see you crying about money?” After that conversation I prayed and asked God to supply my needs and put my trust in Him. I stopped worrying about my finances and my back stopped hurting. Worry is the opposite of peace which means that it comes from the devil. I gave the devil access to my life by worrying instead of praying so that I could experience God’s peace that surpasses understanding. 

According to doctor’s depression is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act. Depression is not just a mental health disorder it’s a spiritual issue. I used to be depressed and I didn’t even realize until I gave my life to Christ. I was depressed because I wasn’t satisfied with my life. I never realized I was depressed because I was always smoking weed and thought I did it because I liked to smoke, but really I was trying to mask my feelings. My depression got worse when I found out that I had HPV/Genital Herpes. I’d wake up sad, try to keep myself from crying throughout the day and I’d go to bed sad. I just remember being sad and it felt like I was surrounded by darkness. When God healed me from HPV/Genital Herpes I felt that burden lift off of me and I cried tears of joy. A month later I gave my life to Christ and ever since then I’ve been satisfied and I have joy that a person can only get from God. Depression is the opposite of joy which means that it comes from the devil. I gave the devil access to my life because I didn't have Christ and I was trying to fill a void with weed instead of Jesus. 

I was talking to my coworker one day and she was sharing what she was reading in her book with me. One thing that stood out to me was “My _______ does not define me. My identity is in Christ. No man considers how he feels if he believes.” This is why I always encourage believers not to claim that they have anxiety, depression etc. Those are the opposite of the fruits of the spirit and not something that God wants us to have. I understand that sometimes we get anxious or depressed, but that doesn’t mean that we should claim it. Claim means that you own it, we as believers need to stop claiming things that are spiritually and physically hurting us. We need to speak life over our situations, for example: “I have joy” “I will not worry because God will supply my needs” (Psalm 55:22- Give your burdens to the Lord. He will carry them. He will not permit the godly to slip or fall.) We need to stop giving the devil access to our lives by claiming things that are the opposite of the fruits of the spirit. Anxiety and depression are burdens, give them to God, so that He can help you. 

I wrote this blog to let believers know that God doesn’t desire for us to be bound by anxiety or depression. Thankfully, we serve a God who is a Deliverer. Ask God to deliver (set you free) from anxiety and depression. I used to be depressed and dealt with anxiety and God delivered me from both. The same God who delivered me can deliver you too. 

Some scriptures to meditate on:

(Psalm 55:22- Give your burdens to the Lord. He will carry them. He will not permit the godly to slip or fall.) 

(Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.)

(Philippians 4:6-7- Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don’t forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus.) 

(Matthew 6:34- “So don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time.)

(Romans 15:13- May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.)

(Galatians 5:22- But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,)