I used to be ashamed, ashamed of what people would think of me when I told them I was sick, so I never told them. It’s because I was more than just sick, I had a sexually transmitted disease. To be honest, no one ever thinks they’ll get an STD. We see the commercials about getting tested, but we never actually think it’ll happen to us. Some people get STDs like Chlamydia and Gonorrhea that are curable, but what happens when you get one that has no cure. Unfortunately, I was about to find out.
I’ve had oral sex before, but I didn’t lose my virginity until February 2016. A couple weeks later I decided to get tested to make sure I wasn’t pregnant because we didn’t use protection. While I was there I also got tested for STDs just in case. When my test results came back, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I wasn’t pregnant, but I did have HPV. I felt so many different emotions at once. I was disappointed in myself, embarrassed, angry and I just wanted to cry. I never thought that at age 20 my life would drastically change for the worse. Of course, life would go on, but it would never be the same.
I was supposed to go back to the doctor for a follow-up, but I was scared. I just wanted to wake up from this horrible nightmare, but it wasn’t a dream, it was my reality. I’d schedule appointments to go back and purposely miss them because I didn’t want to know what they’d say. Months went by and my symptoms started to get worse. I was getting bumps on my vagina, bleeding irregular, nauseous, throwing up and would randomly get light headed.
In December I finally went back to the doctor to get tested only to find out that I also had genital herpes. I hit a low point in life and was in such a dark space. I remember talking to my dad one day and he told me “Doctors can say one thing and God can say another. When people are sick they take vitamins. You need spiritual vitamins. Get some healing scriptures and meditate on them like they’re vitamins.” I got some healing scriptures and meditated on them daily. I would say “By Jesus’ stripes I am healed” all throughout my day. It didn’t matter what symptoms I had or knowing that HPV/Genital Herpes was incurable, I truly believed that God would heal me. In Luke 18:27, Jesus replied, "What is impossible with man is possible with God."
A month later I went back to the doctors and the OB-GYN told me that all my test results came back negative and there was nothing wrong with me. I asked her about all the symptoms I was experiencing, and she told me that it was probably just from a hormonal imbalance. I knew that it wasn’t just a hormonal imbalance, but I prayed for God to heal me and he did. I went to the bathroom, cried and thanked God. I felt that burden of depression lift off my shoulder and I cried tears of joy.
Even though I was healed, I was still scared to tell people what really happened because I didn’t want them to judge me. When I shared my testimony, I’d always say God healed me from an incurable disease, but I never said that it was an STD. One day I was talking to a group of Christians and asked, ‘What’s one thing you used to be ashamed about that God gave you the boldness to talk about?” I told them about me having an STD and the Holy Spirit spoke to me. He said, “What about the unsaved? They need to know your testimony too.” I thought a lot about what God said and the next day I went on Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook and shared my testimony. I felt so free and no longer cared about what people thought of me. I got so many messages from people who had STDs and I sent them healing scriptures and told them that I would stand in agreement with them for their healing.
I’m no longer ashamed of what I went through because it brought me to God. Being in such a low, dark place reminded me how much I needed him. I got healed from HPV/Genital Herpes in January 2017 and I gave my life to Christ on February 10, 2017. Healing led me to heaven.
I encourage you to share your testimony, you never know who you will help.